So, "I Could Do This In My Sleep" finally has a home in a song. It only took me two years from when I wrote the words! Any way, it's not completely finished yet but I'm posting the audio here to go with the poster. I've never tried this before, so here goes...

I know I don't say this enough but I have an incredible wife. These last two months since I'd left my job of five years, I've been through an emotional smorgasbord. I left with the expressed interest of discovering what God has really been up to in me and what is next in our life together. In the meantime I feel like I've had moments of elation, hope, discovery, all the while floating down a river of subtle guilt. Guilt that by the age of 32 I should know who I want to be when I group. Guilt that while I am a musician and artist at heart, I cannot sit around all day and write songs while my wife goes off to work. Guilt that while we restructure our budget that my wife is doing everything to make ends meet while I am spending more money now to go to school. What absolutely blows my mind though, is that just when I think I can't take this anymore and I'm at my lowest, Alicia is right there telling me how much she loves me. How much she believes in me. That she feels safe with me. That I have a good heart and I'm a good man. I don't deserve her but I couldn't live without her. I always cry at the end of Saving Private Ryan when the old Vet drops to his knees in front of the graves of the men who gave their life to save his and he sobs and pleads to his wife saying, "Tell me I'm a good man. Tell me I've lived a good life." Praise be to God for the blessings and people we never see coming. Praise be to Jesus who can meet us the most dynamically in our dark times. Praise be to the Holy Spirit for transforming us by the love He shows through the people closest too us.

I hate being sick. Which is a really funny thing to say, because who really likes being sick? I'm such a whiny baby when I'm sick. Alicia can already attest to this. Since we've been married, I was sick for like three or four days on our honeymoon. In February, I was in desperate need of a root canal for about two weeks. And now today, I'm pretty sure I've got the flu. What kind of broken down old jalopy did Alicia marry anyway. I'm extremely grateful though to be married to a woman with patience who likes to take care of me. I know....whiny....but grateful.